Then, on May 13th of this year, an hour after I had landed in Hunstville, Alabama for an event that I had been helping to organize, I was standing in Whole Foods when I got the call from my daughter. With an enormous smile on her face she excitedly shared with me that the visas finally came. I stood there, in front of the refrigerated drink section and didn’t know what to say. I did my best to share her excitement but all I could feel was nothing. Just an emptiness that sucks the life out of you. Someone who has sat with another who is dying knows what this feels like. At the moment of death the room is both empty and full. It is one of the oddest paradoxes to experience. And so was I, filled with both nothing and everything. The nothingness of not knowing what to feel and the fullness of feeling it all. The paradox of human emotional capacity is immeasurable.